Today marks the day a bonus video, Demon Humiliates a Cum Faerie in her Princess Panties gets released. It features myself as the Demon and my long time, closest friend and play partner, Ly Lyra. I think everyone at one time gives thought to the idea of having sex on camera. It's not something I ever thought would be serious or likely to happen, at least not until I began shooting ENF films. I always thought it might be fun to do, but my real job would make it hard to do so, thus requiring me to wear a mask. I didn't think it would ever happen because I value my professional relationship with the models I work with and do not ask about any sex scene because it would impact the trust we have in our working relationships, it also makes an assumption that they want to which I do not want to make.
So when Ly asked to do a humiliation scene with me, wanting to be ravished and embarrassed, I knew they post their own pictures on their OF and thought, this could be a special moment to capture an embarrassment scene on film to share with their fans as well as y'all. So what made me change my mind? Ly is someone I felt safe being naked on camera with, even with my own insecurities about my body and sex from my own past traumatic moments. This trust doesn't happen overnight, it is something that developed over time. We've known each other for over a decade, being close friends who also enjoyed casual sexual . Ly is someone who also helped me grow from a social justice perspective, helping me think critically about systems of oppression across capitalism, ableism, misogyny and racism. We also supported each other during our own rough times. Our own paths in grad school had us move away from each other, but we kept in touch. Every time we reunited it was a joyful moment in reconnecting and filling each other's cup with our love and positive energy.
Ly was one of the first play partners I got to explore kink with. I still think fondly of those moments, it was a powerful, hot energy where we both enjoyed mixing elements of impact play with sex. I also loved the communication we engaged in throughout, discussing what safe words we wanted to use and aftercare to make sure we were both okay.Years later, when they visited the states again, they were the first person I got to tie after I began my rope practice. Again, this was a groundbreaking moment in kink for me because I got to see the power and magic of tying someone up, both of us conjuring an intimate closeness while creating visually stunning art.
With each kinky scene we created together, we would check about what we liked about the scene, what we found fulfilling about it and more importantly, how every scene strengthened our connection. I felt safe with Ly, expressing my dominant, sometimes bully-ish mean side, and also showing my naked body to. I also felt safe with Ly as a play partner because I know they would be honest in discussing what they are and not okay with. Because we felt safe with each other, we both agreed with filming our play scene together, which is what led to the video we shot. this would still come with a lot of anxiety and intimidation with shooting a sex scene and it was also exciting.
A point of connection for embarrassment play with Ly was panty play, which as you all know is my favorite. This may have started last year when in about to play with Ly, they realized the underwear they had on was something they legitimately felt embarrassed being seen in. The natural feeling of embarrassment while we played was something they found exciting as much as it was embarrassing for them.
I had just the cute pair I wanted them to wear for our scene. They wanted to act as a fairy, the idea is having a Demon rip off their wings before ravishing them. That was the concept and with that I added a script with some ENF elements, exposing the faerie in cute, polka dotted, princess panties. In terms of sex acts we negotiated, the idea of cumming on them appealed to me and that's where the term "Cum fearie" came up. With this premise, we had a beginning, middle, and end, stripping, dry humping, and cumming. So what was actually going to happen then for the scene itself?
This is where one of my biggest challenges was, trusting the creative process and not planning. I'm someone who is used to planning a lot, from ordering costumes a month in advance, to planning out the shots and the script in my head. I was able to do some of that, I know the room I wanted to use, I knew the angle I wanted to use, but i wasn't sure how my own body wold handle being on camera, aware that I was being filmed while I also had to act as a mean Demon who spanks the faerie into submission before doing a sexual act that is very goal focused.Not only that, i had to make sure we were in frame so that we were on camera. Sex is an intimate, special act, that can be impacted when my anxiety brain kicks in. So shooting a sex scene involved a lot of multitasking - making sure the camera s were running, staying present to enjoy the moment, also listening to Ly to make sure they were okay, making sure I could hear their safe words if they said them. Adding to this was the mask I wore which blocked some of my vision. This definitely impacted how I tie rope because I was less able to check the length of my tails. I knew shooting porn wasn't as easy as it looked, but it was an interesting and fun experience. As with many kink scenes, this scene will stand out for me for years to come, because even though I was keeping track of the cameras, Ly''s reactions, and making sure I was staying in character, I was present the entire time. I was doing the thing I love most - Topping kinky humiliation with spanking, rope, and verbal humiliation, and we got to capture it on film for everyone to see. Ly and I didn't have a beat-by-beat setup of what we were going to do, we listened to each other's energy, I loved how I used a simple tie, using it to pull Ly close when I needed or to push them down, alternating between groping them, spanking them, or gagging them with my fingers.
We both are very proud of this video. What I like most about it is it captures things in kink that I find hot - stripping, embarrassing panties, spanking, rope, and I got to share it with someone I love. It's special to me because I think it's a good reflection of me and my relation to kink. I know sex and raunchier forms of it are not everyone's preference with embarrassment and exposure. I do like it from time to time, and in my view, I saw this as making an ENF video but a more personal touch as I"m exposing to you all parts of my I otherwise would keep private - my body, and my relationship with others. For those who do buy this video, we hope you like it, we are quite proud and very lucky to get to fuck because we find each other hot. I also want to wish Ly a Happy Birthday and many thanks for your friendship, your wisdom, and your kind, radical heart. Without you I don't think I would have had the connection to my sex magic that I am flourishing with now, so I honor and appreciate that you're in my life. If you don't follow Ly, change that now and subscribe to their OF and give them a kind gift as they have blessed me with theirs.
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