The Bigger & Barer sale and my newest ENF video Haunted House of Humiliation

It's hard to believe summer is over. Before it ends I have lots of exciting things in store for this month and for sENFtember. As you all know, The Immodest Collection volume 4 will be released on 9/1, the first day of sENFtember. The book will feature the return of Erica Hardy and Caitlin McNally from The Immodest Collection volume 1 , The Mistress and Riot from the Immodest Collection volume 2, and Rana Halaweh from Indecent Exposure Therapy To give folks who have not read these books a chance to catch up, for the whole month of August, I am running the Bigger and Barer sale! From now until 8/31/24, you can get the Immodest Collections volumes 1 and 2 AND Indecent Exposure Therapy each for 50% off! That's $1.50 for each story. So, with the final month of summer, use that time to catch up on some spicy exposed and embarrassed erotica and turn up the heat even more! Each book can be purchased on Smashwords . I hope everyone who has not read these books gets a chance to cash in on more enf/euf erotica! In addition, I will be releasing a free story featuring Riot and The Mistress that takes place between the Immodest Collection volume 2 and 4 on my Medium page

Because of these writing projects, I took a month off from filming. So when I resumed again, I was ready to get back into the swing of things with filming and took a step into another area of growth for me, and that was shooting two ENF films back to back.

I previously hesitated into doing two in a row because I did not know the length of time it would take to shoot one clip. I wanted to give myself time to mentally process directing, adjusting lights, and filming and the first 5 films took roughly about 4 hours each. However to be more cost effective, I know a lot of professionals shoot multiple clips within that 4 hour time frame. This makes sense in terms of being cost effective, especially when it comes to booking a shoot space.

So once I found a location I was excited to work with Violet Vixen and Devious Skunk again. My long term goal is to work with a wide range of models but since I'm still new and I have such good fun shooting with both Violet and Skunk, I knew it would be a fun process.

The concept I wanted to do was a relatively simple ENF storyline in terms of setting up ENF gags and a common plot that I see is a real estate agent visiting a house story. The idea is always a model going into rooms with their clothes disappearing. It seems like a basic idea but that was where the fun came in writing the characters. With Violet I envisioned her being a Type A, bossy real estate agent obsessed with a perfect record so that when she is exposed, it makes the contrast nice in terms of focusing on her humiliation. 

 

 

The challenges to this shoot. Which I am still trying to figure out is making seamless cuts between pre and post stripping. For ease of shooting, I break things in chunks so that dialogue is easier to act out and memorize. I also think this makes for stronger performances as there is mental effort put into wondering what the next line is. 

Of course, a seamless cut makes for a smoother transition but here in lies one of the challenges to directing. I could do take after take hoping that the model will eventually get a long page of dialogue down in one take without any slip ups. However, there are other things to keep in mind and that's the models physical and mental well being. It was HOT that day, at least into 90 degree range and to keep sound off I had to switch between turning air conditioners on and off for sound. Violet and Skunk each had to wear business attire and so the risk of doing take after take could have been exhaustion or worse dehydrating them to the point of passing out which I did not want. So making sure water was in supply and also doing as much as I can to minimize wait time wad this shoots lesson, which meant stopping longer to review my shots and make sure I got what I needed before moving forward. 

 

I also have learned more about writing in that I need to trim up and be concise with dialogue. When I write scripts I'm used to pouring the dialogue out as it flows through my imagination, cutting up bits I don't feel are needed later. Much of the extra dialogue is what I think is embarrassing for the character but not exactly what the model will think when they make acting choices. It also adds unnecessary time to shooting because the model wants to do their best to get the lines right and it can be easier on them if I cut out the excess that isn't important. 

I also learned a lot about my own stamina for shooting as it was essentially a full work day. While I was tired by the end, it was satisfying to walk away with two full clips that have been fun editing. Violet stars in Haunted House of Humiliation, in which a real estate agent finds out why anyone who buys the home abandons it out of fear of being stripped naked and spanked. It is available now on my MV page. Skunks film will be not so much a part two and more of a sequel to this story which I will reveal likely at the start of October for the scary season.

As always I appreciate the support from you all and hope you enjoy the latest ENF film!

Reflection of 2021?

 2021 doesn't feel like a new year, it really feels like 2019 and 2020 blended together. I am grieving and angry that omicron has activated the same sense of dread and hopelessness I felt at the start of the first lockdown (note, not the first pandemic, that's what's still happening). All that has changed is where I am in proximity to the pandemic.

In 2020, I was providing telemental health from a distance. I was isolated, but felt less anxious knowing I could trust I was not at risk of testing positive for Covid because I hardly went out. Yes I was and still am touch-starved, but I felt I could approach things with my own level of control, going out once, testing, waiting for results, and going out again. In 2021, I work in the hospital now, and the number of floors turned to Covid units have increased. Staff are burnt out and patients requiring additional care, whether that be substance use counseling or inpatient psychiatric care, are forced to wait due to Covid. it's bad, and what makes me so mad is that it did not have to get to this point. The recommendations have remained the same and were clear to policymakers early on and yet, here we are, the chance to control and minimize casualties is long gone.

Throughout this time, I remained writing, some days taking breaks as i was hit with hopelessness for the future. For the first time in a while, my sex drive was lower than usual and I felt less inclined to explore my love of erotic humiliation. Still, I continued to provide therapy to patients and my desire to connect my embarrassment fetish to a wider audience remained. Then, I had a small idea about a therapist helping a college student understand why she's having naked nightmares. This idea blossomed from what was going to be a short story broken up in 5 sections into my first novella.  

This was the fastest I have ever written a book. I was grateful to have something singular to focus on during November and December. What I have always liked about erotic humiliation is that it is an emotion-focused kink. The appeal is not about seeing someone naked, but their embarrassed or horrified expression in reaction to being exposed. It is their emotional response that excites me and that is why I love how kink focuses on those emotions as well. In my novella, I examined how multiple emotions can come up. One character, Cristina is quite distressed with the nightmares keeping her up at night and the protagonist, Dr. Halaweh, must help her understand intrapsychically why the distressing images are also a source of sexual excitement. I think what made this book easier to write was that I got to nerd out on the therapeutic process and the embarrassment kink. I am proud to release Indecent Exposure Therapy as we welcome 2022. I hope you'll give it a read and enjoy the psychology of being naughty >:). For a limited time, you can enjoy this small tease as a sample.