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Reflection of 2021?

 2021 doesn't feel like a new year, it really feels like 2019 and 2020 blended together. I am grieving and angry that omicron has activated the same sense of dread and hopelessness I felt at the start of the first lockdown (note, not the first pandemic, that's what's still happening). All that has changed is where I am in proximity to the pandemic.

In 2020, I was providing telemental health from a distance. I was isolated, but felt less anxious knowing I could trust I was not at risk of testing positive for Covid because I hardly went out. Yes I was and still am touch-starved, but I felt I could approach things with my own level of control, going out once, testing, waiting for results, and going out again. In 2021, I work in the hospital now, and the number of floors turned to Covid units have increased. Staff are burnt out and patients requiring additional care, whether that be substance use counseling or inpatient psychiatric care, are forced to wait due to Covid. it's bad, and what makes me so mad is that it did not have to get to this point. The recommendations have remained the same and were clear to policymakers early on and yet, here we are, the chance to control and minimize casualties is long gone.

Throughout this time, I remained writing, some days taking breaks as i was hit with hopelessness for the future. For the first time in a while, my sex drive was lower than usual and I felt less inclined to explore my love of erotic humiliation. Still, I continued to provide therapy to patients and my desire to connect my embarrassment fetish to a wider audience remained. Then, I had a small idea about a therapist helping a college student understand why she's having naked nightmares. This idea blossomed from what was going to be a short story broken up in 5 sections into my first novella.  

This was the fastest I have ever written a book. I was grateful to have something singular to focus on during November and December. What I have always liked about erotic humiliation is that it is an emotion-focused kink. The appeal is not about seeing someone naked, but their embarrassed or horrified expression in reaction to being exposed. It is their emotional response that excites me and that is why I love how kink focuses on those emotions as well. In my novella, I examined how multiple emotions can come up. One character, Cristina is quite distressed with the nightmares keeping her up at night and the protagonist, Dr. Halaweh, must help her understand intrapsychically why the distressing images are also a source of sexual excitement. I think what made this book easier to write was that I got to nerd out on the therapeutic process and the embarrassment kink. I am proud to release Indecent Exposure Therapy as we welcome 2022. I hope you'll give it a read and enjoy the psychology of being naughty >:). For a limited time, you can enjoy this small tease as a sample.

 

 

Cartoons were the genesis of my kink

 Although I've been through many transitions that have kept me busy, I still often think of ways to keep my blog fresh. Sometimes, a barrier i think that gets in the way is the assumption that what i write has to have some profound analysis, and if I don't feel i have something to discuss that meets that criteria, i do not write. This overlooks the other reason i wanted to start blogging, and that was for fun. One thing i absolutely enjoy is curating embarrassed naked scenarios from media.

Today I wanted to focus on the shows that planted the seeds for my embarrassment fetish. Of course, it did not start with the erotic humiliation I've grown to write about. It happened with the earliest depiction I would have had access to as a kid, cartoons.

The embarrassed naked genre's roots stem from comedy. I have previously  discussed how comedy gags involving exposure have included skirts blown up, fur/feathers being shaved, and pants falling down to expose underwear with a pattern printed over it. Many cartoons have utilized some form of these tropes for the purpose of amusement. 

One early example is the Looney Tunes episode, "Wise Quacking Duck". It was not the first episode i saw depicting forced exposure, but I think it's one of the best examples from Looney Tunes. I think much of the comedy in Looney Tunes walked a fine line between child appropriate humor as well as inserting jokes that were more tongue-in-cheek. I think pinup/cheesecake style erotic art was popular during that era and it seemed like animators were willing to take the risk to put it in the episodes. Many times, it was the villain of the episode who would be stripped. Elmer Fudd was often pantsed by Bugs Bunny, he was even once exposed wearing a girdle. 

But the episode I often call back to was the aforementioned episode where Daffy Duck is chased by a hunter. The first moment he is stripped, he willingly does so, slowly doing a striptease by undressing out of his feathers as if it were a suit. He even uses lettuce as feathers to tease his audience. It is when he raises his arms, his suit falls down and exposes polka dotted boxers. We see him cover up in embarrassment before running away. 

 

 

 Later on, he is cornered into a wall, gun against his chest. He begs "Not twice in the same picture!" and his feathers are blown off, leaving him with his arms crossed over his body to cover up.

 

 

I do recall feeling a physical excitement anytime I saw this kind of trope. It happened again watching a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles episode where Leonardo cuts Rock Steady's pants off, exposing his heart-print boxers. I found this frustrating, because i didn't want to be distracted with the stimulation I felt. Most of the fight scenes in cartoons had a serious tone, so when the humor of a character being humiliated was depicted, my body reacted.

 

 

 

One scene that actually made me hard was when I never expected an embarrassed exposure scene, such as in the cartoon the Adventures of T-Rex. This was a superhero themed tv show where a group of armored dinosaurs fought crime. In the episode, Screwloose, they fight a robber whose named after the episode. In the end, Screwloose manages to loosen the screws to the armor of the team, pantsing all of them. I remember being struck by this scene because at that point, I believed superheroes were never supposed to look bad. Here they were in the street exposed in their boxers, the idealized heroes humbled as they were made to look ridiculous. But that is the point of the humiliation kink.  

I highlight these examples today to highlight how our minds come to resonate with our kinks. As a psychologist I enjoy processing how different factors can affect us developmentally as we come to understand ourselves and what we desire. When I was young, I did not know I had a kink for this. I was not sexually active, but the imprint of humiliation with excitement was there.

 

 

This does not mean that all kinks start from cartoons. However, without these scenes early in my life, I'm not sure i would have had the same connection to the embarrassment kink as I do. In reviewing these cartoons, The Adventures of T Rex has me realizing where my inspiration for Riot may have come from 

If you have an interest in the embarrassed naked genre, where do you recall your first moment that may have had it click for you? What about for your other kinks? 

I think the next entry will focus on how I first got into the ENF genre.