Sunday, January 21, 2018

The Shape of Water Review




Last night I had one of the most powerful experiences in a movie theater that I haven't had in a while. I finally got the chance to see Guillermo del Toro's "The Shape of Water" and there were so many elements in it that made it perhaps my new favorite movie of all time. There might be minor spoilers so if you have not seen the movie do not read further.

The Shape of Water focuses on Elisa Esposito, a mute cleaning woman in the 1960s during the cold war. Elisa lives next door to her friend, Giles, a closeted gay man who works as an artist. Her other friend is Zelda, a black female who works with her at a laboratory and often translates for her when interviewed. Zelda lives an isolated life that is routine until she witnesses a new addition to the laboratory, a sea creature held in captivity under the sadistic Colonel Strickland. Elisa sees the creature while she is cleaning the room and what follows is a budding relationship between Elisa and the Creature.

Since this is an erotica blog, I'll spend sometime talking about how sex is portrayed. While nothing explicit is shown, the sensual way in which they are shot had me shifting in my seat, from the brief shots of Elisa sinking into her bathtub to pleasure herself, to the way she straddles the creature as they embrace. The only hint at sex is when Elisa strips before getting into the bathtub with the creature. But it's the glow in her face, figuratively when she is at work with Zelda and then literally when Guillermo uses sunlight to hit her face when she looks out the window of the bus on her way to work. It's the slow pace of their relationship, the first half hour with Elisa rescuing the creature after numerous montages of her having lunch with it and then there is the time she spends at work covering for the fact that she's hiding it in her apartment. The entire time I felt the frustration in being excited over a new attraction and having to wait. That is why the payoff, seeing Elisa find the courage to share the bathtub with the creature, is magical. We can use our own imagination to imagine what the first naked touch of someone we care for, who cares about us, feels like. The smooth slipping sensation of legs intertwining and the sensation of our hearts racing when we feel their lips on ours. None of this was in the scene but it was just one route my imagination ran down while in the theater. I think my favorite was when Giles walked in on them together. The look Elisa gives him while wrapping her arms around the creature, not shame, not indignity, but defiant and proud lust for finally finding someone. Earlier in the movie, Elisa gives a heart-wrenching explanation to Giles about why rescuing the creature matters, I got choked up watching Sally Hawkins emote while signing how painful being treated as an "other" was and when we see her on cloud nine, it's so intoxicating.

Other things I loved about the movie are the parallels Guillermo drew within the time period during the "Space Race" between Russia and the U.S. and the current political climate. Colonel Strickland plays a determined family man who wants to succeed in completing his job in making sure the creature is properly studied. This ends with them deciding to kill it. The motivation for the U.S. is to hold onto the creature so the Russians won't get it, representing just one aspect of the anxiety and hegemony that the U.S. operates under. Strickland's anxiety gets worse throughout the movie, focusing on "success" and getting more angry as he fights to correct the mistake of losing the creature. With the 1960s, Strickland represents white, Christian patriarchal ideals. His anger towards women who speak against him manifests in physical action, from holding his hand over his wife's mouth to stop her from talking while they have sex, to purposely spilling his water to force Elisa to stay and listen to him imply his desire to rape her. My friend pointed out that the only reason Elisa intrigues him is because she does not have a voice, the only type of woman he would want. What stood out for me was that despite touting himself as a family man, the scenes with Strickland and his family are always cold. His wife and children offer warmth and a desire to engage with him while he remains stoic and focusing on his internal thoughts, completely detached.

In contrast, all of the characters with marginalized identities maintain warm connections with each other, representing the importance of social support for oppressed populations when the dominant culture pushes them aside. Even before the creature is in Elisa's home, each character does some action in support to their friend, sometimes without understanding the full context, and that also adds to the warmth and love that this movie carries. Each character experiences isolation, Zelda I would argue feels this despite being married given that her relationship to her husband is one in which he is dependent on her but not very engaging. This is why their support for each other makes sense when they scramble to help the creature survive as we realize they've had to provide emotional support for each other for years in an overtly oppressive era.

I love watching horror directors move outside of their genre, there's something fascinating about filmmakers cutting their teeth in horror films that makes their later work an absolute joy. Guillermo del Toro is no exception. Shape of Water is a beautiful fantasy romance, using amazing colors to paint a beautiful 1960s setting while holding onto his dark storytelling to portray a unique form of toxic masculinity driven by anxiety. Go out and see The Shape of Water, regardless if you see it alone or with someone you will not be disappointed.


Friday, January 5, 2018

Big Book of Submission Volume 2 mini Review!

Earlier last month I announced my short story "Sing" would be in the Big Book of Submission, Volume 2: 69 Kinky Tales published by Cleis Press.

Once I received my copy I started reading and was not surprised to find  several great stories incorporating embarrassment and humiliation. So, in the spirit of this blog, here is my short review on the embarrassment focused stories. I'd encourage you to take this review as a "sampler" platter to sate your kinky appetite and encourage you to purchase the book yourself to see the diverse perspectives in erotica.

Flagged for Revision by Elna Host

This incorporates a good "dare" punishment when a planned camping trip does not go as one woman would hope. It's not just that the bottom is punished that makes her embarrassment enjoyable, it's the confidence in thinking she wouldn't fail that makes her fall that much more lovely when she is forced to endure the embarrassing punishment she and her partner agreed to. The main character, Edith, literally weathers a storm before being rewarded by her partner. Outdoor camping scenes are not a particular interest of mine which was why Elna Host did a great job in making me understand the allure of the great outdoors.

Grocery Run by Rose. P. Lethe

My preferred way to enjoy embarrassment is through stripping, but I loved this story because of it's use of humiliation without rendering the character nude. The status game that plays out between Top and Bottom comes through phone conversation in a supermarket, reminding me of how lovely an actual conversation on the phone can be versus text. Rose builds tension through the character, Jess', awareness that at any time someone could come down the aisle and catch her in the naughty act her partner Valerie has her engaged in. It makes voyeurism unique in that instead of watching, she's listening to her partner experience embarrassment. It's not just the physical shame, but also the words used to invoke shame on Jess in public. The use of the phone makes the whole situation intimate despite being in a grocery store, perhaps one of my new favorite stories incorporating anal play.

1,000 Words by LN Bey

LN Bey almost breaks the fourth wall by starting her story with a letter that any writer submitting to a publication is familiar with. Embarrassment in this story is not actually present, but it is a lingering threat within the dialogue that makes it real for the character, Ellen. We know exposure will happen and the reaction and horror to that outcome is why I loved it. When she displeases her Dom, her reaction to her punishment is the perfect balance of being horrified without sounding over the top. The tricky part to embarrassed nude female stories is that it's easy to write a character as cartoonish in their reaction to being exposed. For those of us who love the fetish it works, but for others who might not be familiar it can take them out of the story. Kudos to LN Bey for overcoming that challenge and helping me see how to translate a character's embarrassment in perhaps a more realistic manner.

Cari's Recital by Rod Harden

This story in some ways utilizes panty play which is another loved fetish of mine. All of the naughty secrets of this pianist are hidden under her formal "proper" attire for her performance. The embarrassment is subtly referred to due to her discomfort in performing under the conditions her master has set for her. Teasing/orgasm-while-performing is another trope that I love in the embarrassment genre. As a former standup comedian, the audience is always aware of your actions for as long as you are onstage. For Cari, who is forced to stay seated in front of her piano while holding back her arousal, her focus on what the audience did and did not notice in her body language brings a self-consciousness around her humiliation that is another good example of how to use embarrassment without making the person undress.

We Are Magic by Giselle Renarde

While this story does not emphasize embarrassment as much as the others, it incorporates the Time-stop stripping fetish that I don't see in a lot of erotica. I was happy to read this story because it showed me that it is possible to incorporate fantasy, no matter how silly it might seem. Admittedly, maybe this is my own bias that I'm glad to be proven wrong. What I did not expect was for the plot twist that towards the end that made me as a reader second guess the reality that the author set up at the beginning, I truly believed the main character, Nabila's fear in believing the impossible had happened.

Plug Play by Dorothy Freed

This is another story where embarrassment is evoked through a character's first time with anal play. The threat in this story is less about being seen and more about keeping a secret in front of everyone, acting like everything is normal when underneath the clothes, the person is on verge of losing control. When people talk about how kink can spice up a couples' sex life after years of getting "used" to each other, I think this story is a great example of how that can happen. Again, like Cari's Recital, the tension comes from the character holding back her physical responses while in a formal setting where social norms are very clear. As a reader, once I know the social norms of what is expected, I can feel the struggle the character goes through as she sits across the table knowing her dignity is at risk if she should lose control. Personally, I also love that one tidbit about the Top in this story is that he does not drink when playing, a subtle safety practice that I commend the author for giving attention to.

There are so many other good stories in this anthology, my review is just the tip of the iceberg. I'm getting back into the kink scene in my area and what I remember about loving it so much is that kink draws in all people from diverse backgrounds. This anthology does a great job in highlighting different perspectives as to what is sexy.


You can find my story "Sing" and 68 others available in ebook  or paperback form on Amazon. It is helpful to all of us if you give it a review or add it to your Goodreads list here

Saturday, December 23, 2017

Enough to Make You Blush Book Review

After dragging my feet all year, I finally got to purchasing my copy of Enough to Make You Blush by Princess Kali. Princess Kali is a former dominatrix who published this book as a comprehensive guide for erotic humiliation in its various forms and how to incorporate that into your life whether it is through play scenes or just something to try in the bedroom with a romantic partner. As someone involved in kink for several years it is a great reference to inform you on how to negotiate boundaries and safety plans with a play partner to ensure both of you are protected in the case of unintended harm or crises during a scene. I also like how she breaks down different forms of humiliation, with embarrassment being on the lighter side of the spectrum while degradation is on the more extreme side.

What I did want to highlight for the embarrassment lovers are the chapters she dedicates to nudity. I'm currently working on another Immodest Collection anthology and hit a wall recently with one story. Enough to Make You Blush breaks down all the ways you can incorporate nudity with humiliation and dives into the psychological elements, such as the difference between the presence or absence of an audience with nudity as well as the power dynamics when someone nude is paired with someone who is clothed. When you rope (no pun intended) this in with her other chapters on humiliation such as verbal play, teasing, financial domination, or even chastity play, this book is an excellent source for different forms of embarrassing situations to help you think outside the box.

Despite talking about shame and embarrassment, this book does a great job of normalizing erotic humiliation as a kink. It does not act as a gatekeeper for what is and is not acceptable and contains personal accounts from other kinksters' experiences with erotic humiliation. I know personally for me when I identified "embarrassed nude females" as a kink I did struggle with it as I felt like I was twisted or abnormal in some way. I also wanted to know what it was about this kink that clicked for me. Most of the introspection and processing was done on my own, but I would have loved this book had it been around because I needed to hear that I'm not the only one who finds erotic humiliation sexy. I've recently had followers talk with me about their interest in exploring embarrassment and have asked me where they could find more information. Unfortunately there isn't much out there beyond deviant art and a few specific forums. Enough to Make You Blush is a much needed blessing and while it doesn't specifically cover "embarrassed nude females," it is still a key text that you should check out as you explore your own relationship with erotic embarrassment. Also for the embarrassed panty lovers, there is a section exploring panty play and humiliation as well that you'll enjoy ;).

You can purchase your copy of Enough to Make You Blush here. Also be sure to check out Princess Kali's website for more information on humiliation.


Monday, December 18, 2017

The Immodest Collection end of the year sale!

Hello Kinksters



As we reach the end of the holidays, I'm holding a half off sale of my book The Immodest Collection: Stories of Exposure and Shame on Smashwords. You can find it here. Use the code SM79S for you or for someone else :)

Also, my short story "Sing" will be released as part of the Big Book of Submission Volume 2 TOMORROW!

Pre-order it on Amazon here

Or add it to your Goodreads list

Please give it a review if you have a chance and buy the book when it comes out December 19.

Saturday, December 16, 2017

Friday, December 1, 2017

"Sing"

"...squeezing hard enough to make me grunt. My nipple stiffens as the pain signals travel straight to my heart. Even though her grip is hard, the gloves feel like a soft caress, making my toes curl the more her hands leave their red marks over me."



Finally finished an illustration from my short story "Sing" which can be found in The Big Book of Submission Volume 2.

Pre-order it on Amazon here

Or add it to your Goodreads list

Please give it a review if you have a chance and buy the book when it comes out December 19.

Friday, November 24, 2017

Ghosthunters embarrassed nude female clip

My friend Jordana Leigh just posted another clip I helped write. This theme involved ghosts and she and actor, Anastasia Rose did an amazing job wrapping in a lot of embarrassed nude female tropes. The story involves two Ghostchasers who are shooting another live broadcast in a haunted house and as you can tell from the image things take an unsettling turn for them.

Not only do you get two women stripped through supernatural circumstances, but if you love the girly panty embarrassment fetish (raises hand) then it's just icing on the cake. There are often panties involved in Jordana's clips but it is a special situation when the actor is wearing panties like Anastasia's.

Of course I can't ignore the final panel in this screencap image. As you can see it gets a little racy as the ghost has a dirty mind. Not everyone likes the graphic scenes mixed with their embarrassment but I like incorporating soft and hardcore erotic elements in embarrassment stories because it unlocks another vulnerable side to the individual. It's a psychological stripping that brings additional humiliation to someone who is already in their birthday suit.

So if you're looking to add to your enf and euf collection, buy Ghoschasers from

http://theshameshack.com

and let me know what you think!